27 3 / 2012

hi. it’s been a while.

yesterday i came home and tried to eat something, but that didn’t work. i started feeling really sick so i went to bed. i stayed home from school today and haven’t eaten anything all day. i’m not feeling like i’m gonna throw up anymore but i have a massive headache. i know not eating probably has something to do with it but not eating is better than eating FOR ME. i know a lot of people think i am crazy and i probably do have some sort of eating disorder but i feel so much better when i’m empty. yeah i do get head rushes but i don’t get heartburn and i don’t feel like i’m gonna throw up (and i have a fucking massive phobia of that.) and i don’t fear doing things because i cant throw up if i am empty.

27 2 / 2012

so cute.

so cute.

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27 2 / 2012

on the same note, isnt it sad that facebook is used so much?

lately i have been not going online much at all. mostly because of my vision. but i just came on this morning to see that status about myself and my sister. its…. kinda not cool.

27 2 / 2012

immature mother posts angry status about me at 3:30 am complaining about me, meanwhile i get yelled at if theres something questionable about mine. does this make sense?

i managed to retaliate with a comment saying that she shouldn’t post statuses about her family that are so negative because it is hurtful. wow i am gonna get killed now XD

i just turned 19. NINETEEN. and i get shouted at for swearing. it feels like i always have to censor myself =/

17 12 / 2011

NEWSFLASH: smoking causes cancer! it’s not me saying “i told you so” its a FUCKING fact.

15 12 / 2011

my boobs hurt SO much T_T

14 12 / 2011

13 12 / 2011

i want to eat a cookie. noooo…..

12 12 / 2011

thinspocean:

It’s gonna suck i know it

please please

thinspocean:

It’s gonna suck i know it

please please

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12 12 / 2011

i am a fat loser who doesn’t sleep and has no friends.

11 12 / 2011

Intake of food today:

tea….

3 small olives: 20 cal
cube of cheese: 75

water…

ovaltine… 60

155

11 12 / 2011

really moody today.

angry, then crying, then sleepy, then happy, then angry, then sad and crying and sleepy again.

09 12 / 2011

didn’t eat today again except for a few cherry tomatoes. 

09 12 / 2011

i hate myself again

08 12 / 2011

daily intake

green tea, one pot.

a lot of water.

a bit of coke zero (my lover)

2 forkfuls of green beans

a few cherry tomatoes

i feel fine =D